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Μεταχρονολογημένο 2022 (μάλλον)

Hello my name is person_from_place but you can call me Person for short.

This is a random assortment of words rolling from my head and bouncing off my chest, making them eligible for this blog.

Please don't hate me.

I am 33 soon to be 34 from a little crappy country in Europe. I don't know where to start so I'll start here. I just came back from having coffee with my ex.

I have a good job, it pays well, is challenging enough and allows for great work-life balance. I got this job by doing exactly as I was supposed to do from day one at school to today. I was the model kid of the system. I remember I cried once when I got bad grades, that never happened again. I never got bad grades. They got me into one of the top schools. If my parents were to guess what their kid would do 30 years from it's birthday they would not have missed by much. It worked. And I lost so much.

I have a good apartment, a couple of hobbies, travel when I can, I meet my friends sometimes.

This girl has a way of making everything go away, everything feel insignificant, though she doesn't mean to. I tried hard... and I loved it. I fucking loved it. I'm not pathetic, just sad.

I am polyamorous. I spent the first lockdown with her, it just happened. My other girlfriend and I are still together, almost 3 years now. I can see how I make her happy, how I comfort her when she is sad. I love her and I feel she loves me back. Her and I, we click, it just feels... easy, natural.

But, she isn't her.

I haven't been traumatized in life. But she has. She casually mentioned she had a hookup the other day. A guy lit her cigarette and she liked him. That's what it takes. 

This will never happen to me. But then again I thought I'd never have a threesome in my life but here we are. Mental note: carry a lighter, just in case.

I am developing a new kink. And I don't like this one. My other kink, I enjoy, but this is stressful, limiting. I want to compare myself with others, this had never been a kink for me before. But I am painfully average, so yeah, fairly stressful.